pain

LiL hope replaced all the happiness in everyone ..
every year, getting more difficult .. never imagining that this could happen ..
took us by surprise .. a mirror breaks into pieces, because of the "problems and changes." breaks into smaller pieces, just because one hurts .. which describes our friendship now .. we used to stick to each other like glue .. but ,it actually didn’t fill up every part of our  friendship ..  it just dried up and got tired of keeping us together .. now, we’re separating .. some want to keep things the way they were before, trying to relive the memories .. when it`s time to look forward to the future ..  while, others, just want to move on and forget everything they experienced .. when they should cherish the memory, rather than erase it from their hearts .. i wonder where i should place myself .. because, i understand both of them .. for their reasons ..

  I know that things between us are pretty much beyond repair right now.
And I wouldn’t ever presume to try and make everything better
with a conversation, so that’s not what this is…
but I just wanted to tell you, I wanted to say… I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for the pain it caused you. But mostly I’m sorry for my part in it.
But mostly I’m sorry because I miss our friendship.
And however far off it may be, I look forward to the day
that we can be friends again…

Even though it was temporary, our memories are forever.

Things change, people change, and it doesn’t mean
you forget the past or try to cover it up.
It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories

We’ve gone our own ways and I know it’s for the best,
but sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever have a friend like you again

  It’s really scary how you can grow apart from some friends,
when it seems that just a few moments ago they were
the most important people in your life

Even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that
I am forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me

Y do ppol hold on 2 memories so tightly?
Itz bcoz u cn olweiz remember wut happened .
Lyk bein wid friends , family , and different ppol .
Bt therz one sure thng dat u cn count on 4 d memories .
Memories will nevr change . And datz 4 sure .
Cz ppol n ur surroundings may change bt not d memories .
Cz d memories already happened , dey cnt change any more .
Unlyk ppol n ur surroundings . Itz bcoz they’re nt done wid wut their doin .
Dey cn go , dey cn leave , n say gudbye 4ver .
Bt u cn olweiz remember d memories u had wid dem .
Memories r a part f ur past dat u cnt 4get , mstly d ones dat r rily close 2 ur heart .

., mst ppol say dat highskul lyf was d best _
., bt ryt nw it doesnt sim lyk it _
., diz yir n d nxt was supposed 2 b memorable 4 me , hm , and my frenz _
., bt wer is it nw? d happyness , d smiles , d laughter , evrythng _
., evryone was gettin our hopes up 4 an amazin yir , evn tho we’ve got only one person gone _
., bt our hopes juz went down d drain _ cz ol f us is changin , wen u want thngs 2 b d same as b4 _
., wen u cnt get _ gotta live wid wut u got n make d best out f it _ bt itz nt happenin _
., ppol r thinkin abt d problemz , wen d fun is ryt in front f dem _ r dey ignorin it , or wat?
., itz tym 2 hav fun _ cz we cnt get tym bck _
., evn tho we ddnt hav bfs or gfs b4 _ we cn stil live and hav fun _
., kip smilin .. kip laugin .. nvr stop bein happy _
., juz enjoy ur lyf _ u cn stil b complete _
., dnt waste ur tym , be free n live d way u want ur lyf 2 b lived _
., juz dnt end d happy tymz , lyk ur friendshp _make it last _

   .,  itz weird hw things change _ it feelz lyk ur nt comfortable _ steady or calm _
., u thought d thngs dat u ddnt want 2 happen wil nevr kum true, bt it actually did _
., lyk loverz becomin hatez towards ich other _ den friendz becomin enemies _
., i thought friendshp was supposed 2 last _ no endin _ it continues on _ lyk love _
., is change gud or bad? evryone has a different view on it _ bt everyone is afraid 2 accept it _ evn me _
., i dnt wna stop change from takin itz part _ cz i knw  i cnt do anythin abt it _
., thur is so much more i wna say _ bt i cnt find d ryt words 2 say it _
., i wish i cud experience d thngs dat happend b4 , bt itz impossible _
., i wish change wil take it step-by-step _ insted f takin it on us by surprise _
., i knw thurz a lot f wishes dat i want 2 kum true _
., bt d wish i rily want 2 take place is d thngs we wrote abt DMC and wut DMC meant _
., evn tho DMC is broken up n nt d same as b4 _ the thngs we wrote abt DMC is actually abt our friendship _
., i want dat 2 happen _ evn tho it lasted a day _ juz 2 c evryone happy , smilin , laughin , n havin a gud tym _ it wud b a memorable day 4 me and maybe 2 d rest _

Somebody told me you were leavin’
I didn’t know
Somebody told me you’re unhappy
But it doesn’t show
Somebody told me that you don’t want me no more
So you’re walkin’ out the door
Nobody told me you’ve been cryin’
Every night
Nobody told me you’d been dyin’
But didn’t want to fight
Nobody told me that you fell out of love from me
So I’m settin’ you free
Let me be the one to break it up
So you won’t have to make excuses
We don’t need to find a set up where
Someone wins and someone loses
We just have to say our love was true
But has now become a lie
So I’m tellin’ you I love you one last time
And goodbye
Somebody told me you still loved me
Don’t know why
Nobody told me that you only
Needed time to fly
Somebody told me that you want to come back when
Our love is true again
Just turn around and walk away
You don’t have to live like this
If you love me still then stay
Don’t keep me waiting for that final kiss
We can work together through this test
Or we can work through it apart
I just need to get this off my chest
That you will always have my heart

wut f i were 2 t3l u ..

  dat it was onli u n m3..

       wud u want 2 b hir..

          n lay underneath da tre3s..

             hw wud dat mak3 u feel..

                n l3t ur tru3 feelings 2 b..

                    n u let m3 b in ur heart..

                       n tast3 love’s cool breeze..

                           n would w3 sho our love..

                               4 ol d world 2 se3..

                                    wond3r f dis wud work..

                                         or f dis is onli a fling..

                                           is thur such a thng as true lov3..

                                                 ol i knw thur is u n me..

i close my eyes shut so i cnt see..

the awful thngs surroundin me..

i wil remain in a peaceful dream..

nevr 2 wake up wit a scream..

a dream wer it wil nevr rain..

wer i wil no longer feel pain..

a place wer no one wil die..

thur is no hunger,murder or disease..

no allergies or colds 2 make us sneeze..

dnt wake me up, i want 2 stay,,

im dreamin f us runnin away..

laughin wile holdin hands..

runnin across d grassy lands..

i turn 2 look at ur face..

watchin u stare in space..

u turn n met my glare..

we both smile as we stare..

u kiss me softly n then say..

"any place wit u i wud stay"

rain or snow, i wil nevr let go..

i wil stay wit u 4evr..

we’ll face evrythn 2gether..

i close my eyes widhin 2 stay a sleep

dis moment i want 2 rember and kip

let me slil, plz dnt shake me..

i want 2 stay, plz dnt wake me..

…Everything feels so wrong

Pain rises in every love song

I cant get the thought of you out of my head

But you never see when Im crying in bed

I thought that I was finally happy

But you never really loved me

Why does my heart ache when I see you

Thinkin of the past when you played me like a fool

I didnt know how much pain I would feel

I thought that time would let me heal

After a while I thought I didnt need you

Then you smiled at me like the way you used to

With that smile you ruined it and I waited for that day when you would call

Saying you love me and thats all

I thought it would happen and you would forever be mine

But you lied to me and crossed the line

The wounds will heal but the scars will forever remain

I didnt know loving you would be this insane

I know I will feel this pain for a long while

I hide it all with a small fake smile

I knew from the very start what you would do

You would hurt me right when I fell in love with you…